Unashamed Love

 I want to have a childlike faith. That is why my blog is named as it is, and the inspiration for the 

actual title came from this song. I love it, and I feel its very relevant:

Your calling me to lay aside the worries of my day 

                          
To quiet down my busy mind and find a hiding place   

Worthy, You are worthy
                             
I open up my heart and let my spirit worship Yours
  
I open up my mouth and let a song of praise come forth

Worthy You are Worthy
                       
Of a childlike faith and of my honest praise
   
And of my unashamed love

Of a holy life and of my sacrifice
    
And of my unashamed love

This life

Two days in a row of posting, that must be some sort of record.

Things here are going well. Today was spent resting and enjoying time with friends in the snow. I always feel like the snow is God's way of cleansing things, and I love how pure and white it is.To me, the beauty of it never fades.

I love this place, so I thought I'd share some of the love. Enjoy!

My not-boring life

I love to write, and yet recently, when I've sat down to write a blog post, its like my mind just goes blank. Its not because my life is boring, or I have nothing to say. Quite the contrary. My life is insane, and I love it, yet sometimes I just can't find the words to put to it. So this is my best effort in my extreme writer's block.

The past nine weeks have been incredible, challenging, overwhelming, awesome, tough, transformational, fun, hard and everything in between. I have embarked on this journey that has taken me to places I didn't expect, hard places, and yet healing places. When I came to DTS, I knew what it was about, but I didn't really know just how life changing it would really be for me.

The first five weeks or so were probably the most emotional, as I was learning a great deal about myself and about God and who He really is, and what His character looks like. I cried a lot, and most everyone else cried a lot as well. As time has gone on, the lectures are still just as rich and challenging, but as I've grown in knowledge of who I am, and who He is, the tears have not been as frequent.

The last several weeks have been some of the best for me, personally. I have learned how to hear God's voice more clearly, and He has changed my perspective on so many things. I can honestly say that I think differently now than when I first arrived. He's shown me areas of my life that weren't in full submission to Him, and areas where my attitude needed an adjustment. Its never fun to come to these realizations, but it is important. I'm so grateful for the work that He is doing in me during this time, and I am grateful as well for His patience.

Our days here are busy and often tiring and exhausting, but in the best way possible. There is a lot to process, lots of work to be done, preparations being made as we are getting ready to embark on our journey overseas. In the midst of the craziness, though, I am incredibly blessed. There isn't anywhere I would rather be. There isn't anything I'd rather be doing. There isn't anyone I'd rather share this journey with. I am so blessed to be here right now. In simple terms, one of the biggest things I have learned is that God knows what He is doing, and He is faithful.

Please keep us in your prayers as we prepare to embark on our journey's overseas. We leave in just over two weeks, and there is a lot of planning that goes into these next several weeks. Pray for health and safety in travel, for right hearts and attitudes, and above all, that we would accomplish what it is that God has for us during this time. It is really exciting, but there will also be tough times that come. Nonetheless, I am looking forward to it!

Thank you all for your prayers, support, love and encouragement. It means so much!

Days like this

Its days like this, days where I am exhausted, emotional and ready for a nap that make me wonder if I will ever get the hang of adult life. So many responsibilities, so many commitments, so many decisions. When and how does one go from being dependent to independent? From child to adult? From immature to mature? From irresponsible to responsible? 

Many days I cruise right along, content, happy, and completely joyful about life. But some days, like today, I start questioning all of it. I don't feel very good at being an adult yet. I haven't been 'an adult' very long now, and honestly, its been a tough transition. Its not one that is easy. But it is one that is possible. I know that I learn a little more about how to make it through this crazy life each and every day. I know that I mature a little, grow a little, become a bit more independent each day. But its slow. And that is what gets me. It is not a quick, tidy, neat process. There is no wrapping it up and tying it with a bow. Its messy, tough, and exhausting. But it is worth the fight, because its through struggles that growth happens. At least that is the case in my life. 

So, I will continue to trust that someday I will get the hang of it. That someday, I will feel like I can maneuver this life as an adult. But I will also keep in mind that I will never be perfect at it. Of course, there will still be days when I question my sanity and abilities, but, I will trust my ability to make wise decisions. And I will be okay with not having it all together.  Who am I trying to fool? NONE of us has it all together. That brings me comfort. 

Continuing to discover. Always. 

Peace

This time in my life is possibly one of the most hectic, chaotic and confusing that I have ever experienced. And there are many days that I feel like maybe I don't have the strength the continue. But each day I wake up to the sun shining in my window, and a brand new chance to make something great out of my time. 

And each morning there is an undeniable peace that follows me throughout my days, reminding me that although I don't know what the future holds, I know the one who holds my future. I can't explain it. I should not have peace considering all that is taking place, but I do. And I couldn't be more grateful that God has calmed my frazzled nerves, and has spoken truth into my heart. I still have my rough times, but even during those times, I cannot ignore the peace that I have. 

I am content with the present, and excited for the future. 

July 16, 2011

I have much to say, but no words for it. URG. No worries, I am fine. Just mulling over lots of things now. What I can say is, I am experiencing things that I never have before, and am in a place in life that is so different than where I was 4 months ago. It is a good thing. I continue to see peace and contentment reign, and that is huge.

I feel very excited and happy!

seize the day!!

Its a Beautiful Life

I have never in my life felt more peace than I do right now. This is amazing! And yet... there is still a little tiny part of me that questions if this whole 'getting up and leaving' thing is really what I want to do. There is not a doubt in my mind that it is the right thing, but some days I feel like I am just happy to stay here in my little corner of the world, and sit on my comfortable couch, and just enjoy life as it is. But, that would not be the right thing to do. And I know that if I did what I feel like doing, versus what I know I need to be doing, I would regret it for the rest of my life.

I know and trust that God holds my future in His hands, but sometimes I just wish I could have a tiny glimpse into what that future might be. I want to see where I'll be in 5 years. But that is the beauty of it all-- being surprised. I suppose it would be to my benefit to learn to like surprises sooner, rather than later, because life is full of them. But it doesn't always jive with this 'planner' personality. Ha!

No matter where I am in 5 days or 5 months, or 5 years, I am trying to soak up every minute of my time wherever I am at. To learn to love each moment and adventure that comes my way. I am very blessed, and I don't want to miss even a second of this beautiful life!